Wednesday, March 28, 2007

2 more weeks to go for I#3

哇,实在很累,多亏有神的保守和眷顾,我和我弟弟依然地撑着我们那project。我们看到这个第二关的尽头快要来到了,在我们testing的时候,发现一些bugs。敦义很拼命地修好那些部分,我心里非常的感激他。但是我也没守株待兔,奋发地写那老师吩咐我们做的report。这个实在很累人。有时我写到自己不懂自己在写什么了,有时还写到不知不觉睡着了。

这礼拜过了就进入了第三关,也就是最后一关了,两个星期要搞定它实在不容易。我的组员都好像精疲力尽了,我自己何尝不是?哈哈。好想希望可以逃脱这些project,书本两,三天,给我个足够的休息时间。但是我确知这是不可能的,为有的歇息时间就是当我们把这project交上后,什么都不要去想它会不会pass那些老师的超级厉害的test cases,反正做不了什么补救了。哈哈。

不断地写啊写,不断地test啊test,我相信经过这个module,这个project,我不想做个software engineer了,不想歇program了,看到code和documentation都想吐血了。我其中的一个组员可能一听到‘table’这个字就会头痛了。人家说这个module很好玩,看来这种话只由那些受过这些苦的人才会说的出口吧。相信我通过了这个module,我也会那么跟我的junior说的,但是我不会说很好玩,只会说饱受经验!拿了过后,你对programming的兴趣不再像以前那么热心,甚至有点觉得讨厌去思想algorithm,有那种头脑细胞全军覆没的样子的imagination不断在头脑浮现。看来SOC的老师们都想把我们这些SOC学生变成那种样子呆呆的,但是头脑不知在思考什么的,有那种笑里藏刀,一鸣惊人的风范。他们真是。。。哈哈。。。我乱扯的。

好了,我要去睡觉了,不断地数落日子到那天的来临。。。(有气无力地说)加油吧大家。。。

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Submitted my CS3230 project 3

太好了,感谢赞美我的主我的神。我想不到的一天,哈哈,终于交上我的那CS3230 project 3了。实在好难。今天我们一组在老师面前真是出丑了,我们做的那SPA竟然出状况!唉,那是太粗心大意的结果,一切都是我的错。身为组长应该把它检查好才可以拿去给老师看。我却只试了个非常简单得query,可以出队的答案就算了,不再继续test其他的部分了。这真是神赐我的一个教训,下次我必把它thoroughly tested,才拿去demo。没关系,还有两次机会,希望不会再出错了。

好累,明天又要继续的赶完其他功课,然后再继续做project。好了,我得去email我的projectmates,看看他们做到怎样了。哈哈,这次想把这project赶完它。哈哈。加油吧,我的神必保守,必带领。

以下图片是我的组Cronets在concert,Soiree 2007以前拍的。不错吧,还有‘C’的手势。哈哈。这里漏了。。。MINH,你为什么不在里面?!Minh, where are you? How come you not in there? Haha...

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Very stressful semester

As the semester gone by, I feel the homework is getting tougher and tougher... more and more projects... not to mention I have "CS3215 Software Engineering project" this sem... that costs 8mc for this sem... really really tired... wish I have taken CS3230 last sem in which its assignments are easier... this sem's CS3230's assignments are so so so tough, although it is interesting... (享受programming的兴趣都给破坏了,成了头痛)...

Wah, it is such a long time that I last blog because being busy with my projectSSSSSssssss.... and Soiree 2007. Fortunately Soiree 2007 is done, finished, OVER after 9 March, feel really relieved that it is over... oh man but after that there are CS3215 proj iteration 2, CS3230 assg 3, CS3211 assg 1... both CS3230 assg 3 and CS3211 assg 1 now due on 19 March... which means I have 4 more days to complete both... CS3215 proj iteration 2 due on 30 March... and I have quite optimistic abt that... my group has been trying our best le...

This sem I have no hope this sem to get any A... if CS3215 can get an A- or A, that would be very great coz it represents 2 modules... but after looking thr the forum and saw how other team are doing... I feel so stress... 很想找个人可以任我倾诉我的烦恼,但是我知道,也相信唯有耶稣基督愿意。我这个sem觉得我自己不断的跌倒,不断的不知不觉地埋怨,不断的把痛苦自己担。就连当我在写着这个blog时,不断地反省,心里非常的忏悔,非常得很想哭,非常的疼痛,不断地责骂自己为何那么没有力量胜过老我,为何不求主的帮助,为何把一切交给神的忧愁又把它取回来自己背负呢?

At first I thought I can depend on CS3230 and MA1101R to pull my CAP up, but looks like this is just a "dream" and "wish"... I feel really depressed after these few weeks... working late... try to wake up early morning but can't... get back my old BAD habits which I have tried to stop... one word - TIRED...

No need to comfort me or anything... dropping weights too (this is a good thing to me... hehe... but not my family members... they will get worry btw)... I just need prayers... brothers' and sisters' prayers... may God continue to look over His children... I have faith that God will bring me through this... I need to find the narrow exit path that God has provided for me... it is the path of light... but I am still in the dark wilderness... searching for that path... I need to search my heart and check my relationship with God... am I trying to get away from my God? Just like a child who saw the toy sections and hurry pull himself away from his parents' hand... am I that child now? I believe I does look like that child... only that I am looking for my "parents" as a metaphor haha...

May the Holy Spirit in me keeps me awake and continue to walk in His path for me... keeps remind me of God's word so that I don't go to the wrong direction and blaspheme His name... may all God's children have the heart to follow the Holy Spirit and make good testimony for our Father, God. Let these few weeks be a past... as a lesson... as a trial for me to learn and reflect myself... reflect on my relationship with God... may God continue to give us the strength and wisdom for those we are doing that is in His will, that glorifies His name. May God's name be glorified forever... amen!