Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I want to go home too

Waiting for December

My brother, TungLieng, returned to Brunei yesterday as he is still having his holiday. Haiz, TungNgie and I don't have such luxuries anymore after we started to work, as expected. We don't have long holidays like semester breaks or year-end breaks. We only have public holidays, haha...

The last time I came back to Singapore was May 29, so it has been 4 months that I have not return home to KB, haha... then something came into my mind, the Israelites had been exiled to Babylons for 70 years. Wow, they had been away for that long and it is hard for us to imagine that, haha... they really have to thank God that He has revealed to them that they would return to their land after 70 years. Haha...

There are fixed annual leaves and public holiday during December, thus hopefully we can go back home that time, something like taking 4 days leave, I can have 2 weeks break. Haha... have to plan carefully now. Haha... probably going back too during Chinese New Year? Haha... TungNgie and I had been having our Chinese New year in Singapore for 6 years. Haha... don't mind another year if our Lord doesn't allow us to go back. Haha... He knows what's best for us. Hehe...

Hehe... we have assigned a task for TungLieng this time, asking him to take screenshots of all the menu, forms, etc of the current Eastern system. Anyway, still got a lot of things to learn before we really can make our own Eastern system "useful". Haha... e.g. communicating with the default printers to print what is required.

The Royal Tramp

We saw this title on Channel U one Saturday, 7.30-9.30pm, playing two episodes every weekends nights. Haha... that's one of our leisure for weekends, something to expect from the TV during evening. Haha... TungLieng found that out and went to "torrent" them, thus think he would have watched faster than us by now, haha...

Project 0812 first meeting

After hearing what sister EnnYew told me, I decided to meet the committee coming Saturday (Oct 4) and the aim of the meeting is to tell them the vision and purpose of the outreach event on Dec 8. I have emailed/sms-ed them and awaiting for their replies. For now, I got one reply from Samantha that she can make it. Great to hear. Hehe... the venue I suggesting is Burger King and the time is 2pm, hopefully it isn't that pack. Haha... I got some discount coupons for Burger King, maybe can call a burger and drink for "booking" a table. Haha...

May God continue to speak to me, and pray that I have a heart of a servant, and be encouraged and hardworking, haha... I learnt from this few days of reading the bible that action and faith must go together, or else, either one is consider useless/dead. Haha... very true indeed...

Dinner

TungNgie has tried cooking "sweet-sour" chicken twice and although the meats didn't turn red, the sweet-sour sauce and the meats are nice to eat. They are still a great dinner. Also he tried something like "claypot chicken rice", haha... putting meats, cutted hotdogs and vege in the rice cooker with half-boiled rice in there. Haha... what a way to cook. Haha... anyway, they are very good dinner. You can go to my Picasa Web Album to see them, under the album Home Cook. Haha...

That's all for now I guess. Preparing for what to tell my committee, the vision and purpose of the outreach event (Dec 8).

Sunday, September 21, 2008

What's next?

Looking back

Yesterday was a Saturday, at last, that my brother and I need not go back to office. We have finally done our testing... our product has one last testing stage to go through but that doesn't involve the developers now, haha. Glad that it is over now, what we gonna do I think will be solving any bug that is reported during this last stage. Haha...

We have our teen youth fellowship at sister Delina's place and I would like to thank God for His message shared by brother Eddie and sister Celina. It is a fulfilling session learning more about marriage and commitments from the bible. Hehe... God is so wise that He knows what is BEST for all His creations.

After the fellowship, I managed to play my "msn conversation" video and invited brothers and sisters to join me in organizing an outreach event on December 8. I have three names this morning, for that I thank God for preparing His workers. Hehe...

My brother, TungLieng, went home and returned. He got some programmes arranged for the next few days, before he goes back again on Sept 29. Wow, what a "busy" guy he is. Haha...

Second Programming Exercise

After our first programming exercise MMPi, we have started working on our second programming exercise now, which seems like a huge jump from the first one. Haha... need to learn more things for this because we have to deal with events and delegates in order to establish the correct flow. Haha... not only that, we are going to use more controls than the first one, thus I am currently looking on ListView. It isn't an easy control to use afterall, haha...

Pray that God leads us to learn new things while doing this exercise, preparing us for any upcoming projects at our workplace. Haha... also pray that this exercise helps us to trust in God more because of the difficulties we faced (facing right now, hehe...), instead of dragging us away from God. Haha...

Project 0812

December 8, a public holiday, our teen youth fellowship is going to hold an outreach event at a venue that is to be decided. Haha... Aloha Changi if we manage to get a spot. The last resort will be my place here and I wonder if around 30 people can fit here or not. Haha...

Mentioned earlier, I have three sisters who willing to join me for organizing this event. Really thank God for that. And this is the toughest question I facing right now, "what's next?" haha... as if I am just responsible for the trailer. However I know that's just the beginning. Although I have managed a concert before, they are two different events. Organizing a concert involves some "fixed" steps like what to prepare before the concert, be ready during the concert and also close up some stuff after the concerts, and that's it.

Truly a Spiritual Warfare

This is really a spiritual warfare... to be frank, I am really scare to be a leader (leaderphobia?), I am scare to lead because I am afraid that whatever steps I take, it is always a wrong step and end up being scolded, or in trouble, or not up to someone standard that I heard complains. I am really scare people disappointing in me... simply said... I am fear of losing face, from young till now... my fear and my desire for the Lord continues to fight in my heart. Many times I felt alone... I know I can't always depend on my families, especially my twin brother. Sometime I can sense his anger or disappointment on me when I failed to lead. Many times it is my own feeling and for that I sinned greatly. Being a leader or making decision is a struggle to me, and my sinful nature's first option is always to go for "Follower" instead of "Leader".

Many times, God's words, like a sword, penetrate into my heart and it really hurts... I felt ashamed of myself... yes... I know so much about God's words, but I didn't apply it in my life. I have not tried my best to overcome this fear of mine. This is something similar to when I have a bruise somewhere, I want to rub the bruise (to heat it up), but I gave up when I feel the pain. Haha... oopz, nothing to laugh about.

God's word does not only penetrate through my heart, but comforts and encourages me. That's why I am taking up this role of chairman for this event, desire to trust in my Lord to overcome my fear, "leaderphobia". I trust that He will provide the workers, the wisdoms and other necessities to organize such an event, though small (a day only) but significant. All be in His will! Prayer is an important factor for God's work too. Hehe...

Friday, September 05, 2008

Lamb and Coin

September Evangelistic Meetings

Tomorrow is the last night of the meetings and I thank God for bringing my bro and I to all 5 nights. Also, may grace be upon those non-believers that they are willing to accept Christ as their personal saviour after listening to the message, whether it is in english or mandarin. The speaker for the mandarin evangelistic meetings shared the gospel from Luke 15:1-32 where Jesus mentioned the 3 parables: one of the 100 sheeps is lost, one of the ten coins is lost and the story about the son who depart with his share of inheritance from his father, but returned to his father after losing all his wealth.

How joyful it is to sing hymns, praise God and listen to His message with all the brothers and sisters in Christ. Hopefully Jia En and Cher Chin are willing to join us for the meeting tomorrow, so that they can have the chance to hear the gospel, the good news about this wonderful Jesus that has been guiding my brother and I through our life.

My MSN Space

Have been decorating my MSN space these few days, not too sure what to do with it till I finally set the title for my MSN Space be "TungLeh's Lobby", haha... don't think I will put my blog there, because I just too lazy to move... the only thing moved will be some of the links and photo slideshow. Haha... turning it into a central homepage, where my blog posts still reside here. Haha... so that my sidebar here won't be too clustered or too much information. Hehe...

Over at the workplace

My bro and I have been sitting at our testing area with some of our reserved CPU and some shared monitors. Haha... # of CPU > # of monitors there, thus we have some switchers that allow us to force 4 CPUs to share a monitor. Hehe... and it was at these few weeks that my bro and I did some ghosting of CPU image. Haha.... it was our first time... but we realised that we have ghosted a lot of times. Haha... due to required clean-up before re-installation of some program. So there we go...

As we are pretty late on our schedule, starting from next week, my bro and I are assigned different jobscope now, haha... so... pray that God continues to guide us in our assigned area of work and I have faith that it is for our best that we will probably learn new things, may it be spiritually, mentally, physically or all. Haha... weekends start tomorrow and glad to have two days break, hehe...

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

ICA Trip

PR Application

I thank God for my Singapore Permanent Resident (PR) application going well yesterday and today. Thank God that He alerted me to get an extension to my temporary employment pass so that I can attend my appointment slot for this completion of PR application today, or else I will be an illegal immigrant today, haha... and that's bad, because it is not glorifying God's name. I thank God for these two days, having a safe trip back and forth ICA, and also the time waiting there... haha... so the next thing to do is to collect my blue IC next week.

End of probation period

Another thing for thanksgiving... my boss today asked my bro and I to come to a room for a chat... he hand us a letter and told us that we have gone through the probation period and the company is willing to accept we two as its permanent employees now. Hehe... thank God for that and glorify my Lord's name for He is the one behind all these blessings. May God continue to lead us in our working life and I bet there are more difficult times ahead... more difficult times for us to test our faith on my Lord. Hehe... how merciful our God is.

Two nights of gospel meetings

Yes, time flies and it is September now. Two nights of english evangelistic meetings have passed and I am glad that the speaker shared with us God's word, especially pointing out how "sick" the world is. Although medical science and technology are improving, the world is not getting any better. The root of all evil, not money, but it is the sin of all men still exist... the sin causes men (refering to people in the world, including women) to the lust for money, lust for fame, etc. Everyday we read the newspaper and we can't deny this fact... including a small city like Singapore, crime rates just keep increasing. There's only one solution (or medicine) that can "cure" this problem... that is believing in Christ Jesus our Lord... Jesus Christ is the saviour of the world. No other can lead you to heaven or clear your sin.

Thank God that some friends and relatives that are invited by brothers and sisters are willing to come down tonight eventhough it was raining. Hopefully God's word has been sowed onto their heart and may God let the seed to grow so that they will have the passion or the curiousity in their heart to find out more about who this saviour of the world, Jesus Christ, is. Hehe... that's all for now... our job at work still involves testing and reporting bugs, haha... not much time left though... haha... ciao... gonna read a book then sleep. Nitez...